Melancholy

at times when my serotonin level gets a tad bit high, my mind would surreptitiously place itself in a melancholic stupor. i know it is only natural for any human being to feel down which leads to the abominable yet irresistible self pity. however, being melancholic is good once in a while. you'd never cherish a sunny day without experiencing a gloomy one beforehand will you? perhaps people who live in a hot country all year round wouldn't be able to relate (booooo!) but the unpredictable weather of britain is not to be taken lightly. i may have a naughty fling with exaggeration but this time i am truly not and you must believe me!

right. back to feeling melancholic. it is a feeling when you ache for life to stop jostling and hustling you in any way. All of a sudden the five minutes routined walk to the local store seems like an arduous path up the hill. everything becomes exaggerated and strenuous. the only thing you pine for is comfort in your own space and thoughts. you'll carry a languished expression for days (in my case it would be about 2 days or until my other half notices and cheers me up with his slapstick jokes) and a dive into self indulgence is never a surprise.

by this time your hectic lifestyle now feels like an obligation. a longing for serenity and placidity develops and you seclude yourself from the crowd to search for complete and utter solitude. the queer thing is, you enjoy doing things alone and your thoughts are your own reflection. there is pleasure mulling over the past and your thoughts are wrapped up in incidents of the long ago. all along, the heart is weighed down like a trapped paper under a paper weight awaiting for someone to lift it and ease the burden.

what could be the treatment for melancholia? some people claim a cup of hot chocolate with extra marshmallow would do the trick. others swore on the magical power of comfort food, romantic movies and the list goes on depending on each individual. i wouldn't dare claim to have the solution for melancholia. however, i do believe that after a heavy dosage of self pity and passive temperament, people who suffer from a short episode of melancholia would usually spring back to life and end this whole drama at once.

you see, being drenched by those sad depressive thoughts is terribly unpleasant and at one point, gets quite sickening. you will wiggle your way out wether conscious or unconsciously and call upon those positive thoughts to start circumambulating the perimeters of your mind. this exuberant change towards positivity will naturally enhance your perspective of things and motivate you to face life's jostle and bustle that is until the next visit melancholia decides to give you. :)

nunu feeling melancholic